It’s crazy to me to look back at this past year, or even since the end of August when my FB post went viral. I have changed so much.
Especially since my winter break has ended, and getting myself into the routine of this semester. I feel more confident than I ever have. I don’t feel like the passive, quiet person that I have been pretty much my entire life. I feel comfortable stating my mind for what it is, uncaring if there is judgement. I feel confident in myself because I am finally taking the time to focus on who I am, instead of worrying about everyone else 24/7. I have always focused on other people and making them happy, fulfilling their needs, but I never took time to care for myself. Now, however, I feel like I am a better helper and friend because I am taking the time to care for myself as well. I finally am taking the time to reflect on what happened that day, or think about what someone said in class, and ask myself what that really means to me.
I can already tell that this semester is going to be a crazy one with the dynamic of classes I have, the several side projects I have going on, and preparing for the trip to Thailand. It is going to be a busy semester, but I am so excited about it! It’s the start of my senior year, and I could not be more ecstatic about it because I get to share it with the amazing people in my life. This school year (Fall 2015 & Spring 2016) has been made of classes to get my major (psychology) and minor (women’s studies). I love that these classes really make me question how I have lived my life up until this point, and the reasons I have lived my life how I have.
If we don’t face challenges in our life, or are never apart of conversations that make us question our entire existence, then we haven’t lived at all. When you leave college, you shouldn’t feel like you know everything…if they taught you right, you’ll realize you know absolutely nothing. And I realize that I know nothing…and that makes me all the more excited to learn.
I am endlessly creating myself.