Today marks the one year anniversary of getting my ambigram tattoo.
One year from today, August 23rd.
I have grown a lot since a year ago today, yet I still have so much to learn. I still struggle all of the time with my depression and anxiety. There are still periods of time where I cannot seem to get out of bed, and days where I have panic attacks. However, there are so many good days too. I am trying to see the positive in everyday, even though it is extremely difficult sometimes.
Reflecting back on this year, I am so thankful to the wonderful people have supported me in my difficult times. I am so thankful for my parents, who continue to support and check on me all the time; I am thankful to my dear friends who know just what to say when I need it; I am thankful for the relationships that have continued to grow, which have helped me grow too; I am thankful for my therapist because she helped me see things in new ways; I am thankful for animals, because they are little angels when it come to fixing my mood; I am thankful for higher education, and so thankful that I have the opportunity to learn; I am thankful for my professors who have the biggest hearts for their students; I am thankful for travel, so I can see the diversity of our beautiful earth, which helps me see how much bigger the world is than the problems I hear of everyday;
I am thankful.
What are you thankful for?
When I reflect upon the meaning behind my ambigram tattoo, I can say that I’ve been doing better not bottling up what I’m feeling. It’s still a struggle, but I wish to strive to be transparent and vulnerable, so I can show people that’s it’s alright to open up; that it’s okay to have your own struggles; that it’s okay to hurt or have pain; it’s okay to break down and have bad days…but I want to make it clear that it doesn’t last, even if you cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Staying positive seems impossible–I know, because I’m not really an optimist. However, just remember it doesn’t last forever.
I want to thank every one of you for following along on this journey of mine, and I hope I continue to give light on mental health.
Keep fighting, guys 👌